why do i think he’s cheating
why do i think he’s cheating?
is it because I believe I’m not good enough
everyday i look at myself in the mirror
and i smile
feel a sense of happiness come over me
but then i look again
i see the fear and anxiety
i question his ability to love me
because he doesn’t love me
why doesn’t he love me?
am i not good enough??
there seems to be too much neuroticism
he’s skeptical about loving me
being in love with me
and now i think that is my fault
i don’t feel pretty anymore
i know i’m pretty
but he never tells me i’m beautiful
does he tell other girls they are beautiful?
has he ever said i love you to another girl?
he won’t let me in
he doesn’t think i’m worth it
he doesn’t even tell me how he feels
at least not truthfully
sometimes its because he doesn’t wana hurt me
other times it’s because he just doesn’t want to
but why?
why, why, why?
why not me?
he is going to leave me one day for another girl
and yet i wait for him to do it
whenever i do one little thing wrong
i feel 100x more guilty than i should
even today i said something i shouldn’t have
he got upset with me
and now i know he is going to look at me differently
i can’t seem to let it go
i just beat myself up over it
put more simply i can’t trust him the way i used to
he hurt me
not really bad
but he hurt my heart
squeezed it too tight
and it bled
he didn’t want to clean it up
so it still leaks
